Atelophobia

I guess everyone in this world, even though just a little bit, feels the same way. No one's perfect.
Last night I had a little chat with my best friend about this; about how I sometimes feel that every one around me is moving forward in a really fast pace. Whereas I, just stay in one place. It makes me sad and afraid to look around me. Though that's what my friend told me to do. Why don't you stop for a while and take a look? You'll feel surprised what your presence brings to us, he said. To this I just wanna say I don't know. I don't know how people feel when I'm around, and sometimes that makes me scared. And all the 'what if's came into my mind. I know it's holding me back and it's making me feel like I'm never enough towards someone. I know that this is an illness that is quite hard to find a cure for. But a friend told me that all you need to do is accept yourself. Acceptance is the key.

I'm grateful for that conversation last night. I'm trying so hard to accept myself; accept the slow pace that I'm going with just to enjoy everything that I hold near and dear first, even though that it's not as interesting as people judge me to be; acceptance of being left behind by the people you see around you; accept the situation I'm currently in, the ups and downs; and of course, accepting you the way you are.

I'm slowly, and hopefully surely, learning to accept all of the things that I encounter.

Acceptance. As you leave me behind, just remember that I'm always here smiling at you when you look back.

3 Weeks

 It's been 3 weeks since I've arrived in Duri. In that three glorious week, what did I do? Nothing. Absolutely nothing in special. Yet.
On the other hand, the immense amount of time that has been graced to me have made me slightly more productive than before. I have actually produced several watercolor works, though not all finished, that are actually quite satisfying. Applause. Thank you.

Several works I did in my vacation.

Basically they're starring at you.

A quickie.

Boys, boys, boys, boys. Boys, I do adore.

And to this day, there's still several new ones also. It feels good to finally be able to make something what I like. But somehow I feel like a slave for my own artwork. Look what it's done to me. It kept me inside my room for 3 whole weeks. Yeah, I need to get a life. But oh well, for now, I'm just gonna look at the positives. A situation like this is hard to come by, get used to it while it lasts.

Swoon's Musical Architecture

One word; amazing!

A Gateway Between Heaven and Earth

This is one of those moments when I think, "I have to go there, this is a place to visit before I die"
This is Salar de Uyuni, the world's largest salt flat located in southwest Bolivia. When it's rainy seasons, it becomes the world largest mirror. Our earth is certainly a magical place.

I Helped!

So back in May, one of my senior asked me to help him on his final project for college. I was asked to make an illustration of a crowd supporting the several people above them doing their activities. And also with several elements from Bandung, since the concept is to reach all of the creative community in Bandung.
I made that a whole week, while juggling with my college assignment and dodging several events that my friends are working on. And I'm really sorry that I didn't give much help.

Well, this is the illustration. I did the pencil and my senior did all the editing. This is supposed to be a billboard design.

I feel so accomplished, since this is pretty much a new challenge for me. The paper an elongated A3 paper, I think. Definitely a challenge. I'm grateful that I've taken it.

Oh, and before this one, I got 3 orders of illustrations from him. It was for the same project also. But those illustrations were made for collectible cards. 

              

 

In Collectible Card Informing (2), my work is the "Sepeda Onthel" illustration, on the top right.

In Collectible Card Informing (3), my works are the portrait of Mick Jagger (first picture) and the Beatles  (third picture).

I can't thank my senior enough, I was happy to have been able to help.

Thanks Kak Soenar!

Hometown + Dark Inspiration

My spacious room in the morning

So after a year away from my hometown, Duri, finally I got the chance to go back and visit it. So far, nothing much has changed. But I do look forward to that non-changing feeling that I used to experience. I can't wait to see the beautiful twilight sky that made me stayed in my room all afternoon. I can't wait to visit my school and the places that I like to go to when with friends. AH! All of them, at least give me one last chance to visit all of them again.

Let's move on to my room first. No, it's not usually this clean. But I like it this way. I like the spacious feeling that it gives. And oh, that's my electric guitar that I vandalized! I wonder if it still works. 

My current workspace. I don't know why the remote have any significance towards the "workspace" concept

This is where I'm gonna spend my days in Duri. Just rolling around this pink carpet and glueing my eyes to my laptop screen, checking on my Twitter, Facebook, and Tumblr for all I care. BUT NO! I don't wanna do that for the whole vacation. Imma find my self something to do. So you better look forward to it! On the side note, I got my Beats back! I can listen to my k-pops privately now (teehee, I secretly like K-pop music... not really). Got a new camera too. I can't wait to get on my bike and take pictures. And something new that I recently got is... -drumroll- a book called Dark Inspiration!

The awesomeness that is Dark Inspiration

Got it at (ak.'sa.ra) bookstore and all I can say is, uh-mazing. These kind of book is hard to stumble upon and I'm pretty lucky to have found one. I like dark artworks and this book has a lot of lovely dark artworks from the artist I know and several ones that are new to me. 

Order from left to right. Top: Kate MacDowell, Audrey Kawasaki. Bottom: Fuco Ueda, Oleg Dou

I'd love to show all the lovely artworks in this book, but I'm just too lazy to take a picture of all of them. Only thing to do now is get your own copy. Don't fuss about the prize, it's definitely worth the money. 

Out of all the artworks in there, Oleg Dou's the one that gave a little bit more impact to me than the others. I don't know why, but I'm quite fond of the faces that he portrays in his artwork. My favorite is Duza's Tears.

Duza's Tears. 2008.

Making of ミルク: An Old, But Interesting Video

It started off with my friend, Sarah (sharkust), tweeted me saying that she Googled "abusedmember" and there's actually a suggestion for the term. Am I really that famous? (nope)
Well, since I had nothing better to do, I just started browsing through the pages, and realised that a lot of it linked back to my old WIP video. I re-watched it. I realized that I need to document my work in progress often. Looking at this video at least helped me gave a little bit of a view towards how much I've progressed. I need to look back to learn for what's to come.

Without further ado, here are the videos: